I gave in and ordered the new video card, as well as a new hard drive and a window kit to mod my case. I'll need my father's help cutting the hole and installing it. Should be cool to see what difference the new video card makes, especially in Unreal Tournament 2k3. It runs good now one my machine so I was hesitant to purchase the new video card, but then what the hell; why not.
I'm at work bored as usual, no work my way yet. I installed Rollercoaster Tycoon on the laptop here and it works. I did the first level, but just can't seem to get into it again. I think most of the fun I had with it, was playing it with Wendy. It was one of the few games we could play together. She doesn't like most of the games I play, which makes it hard as we have only one computer. I just might have to rebuild the old P2 450 machine. The problem is of course where to put it.
Got a new joystick for my b-day this weekend, works good too. When I finish RTCW I can get back to GTA3. Hopefully with the new video card it'll run better. I need to remember to run it in compatibility mode, that supposably makes it run better under XP.
The weekend was fun, but I can't help but get down in the dumps when I go anywhere (like a mall or shopping). I see all these beautiful young ladies, some too young, that I am attracted to. and I wonder where were they when I was in high school or college. Or was I just too blind to see/notice. A lot of it has to do with they dress more attractively now as compared to then. Maybe I was just born to early in time or too late. I do feel out of place/time a lot. Then again with being diagnosed with MS at such a young age, I think my youth was wasted. That if I knew this was going to happen I would have done things differently. I was doing so well not thinking of Julie until this weekend, I think Wendy brought her up. She was my "the one that got away", or I let slip through my fingers. I guess I'll never know what she thought, or if she knew how I felt about her. I never said so... I was too chicken and always thought I would have time to do so. I spent my high school and college years always thinking I would have time for women later in life, and concentrated on school. Now my time seems to be little and gobbled up by my MS.
Today I feel like a 27 yr old trapped in an old man's body with the mind of a teenager. TO thjink next year will be my 10 year reunion from graduating from Harpursville. Will I go if we have one? I don't know, I do and I don't.
I'm at work bored as usual, no work my way yet. I installed Rollercoaster Tycoon on the laptop here and it works. I did the first level, but just can't seem to get into it again. I think most of the fun I had with it, was playing it with Wendy. It was one of the few games we could play together. She doesn't like most of the games I play, which makes it hard as we have only one computer. I just might have to rebuild the old P2 450 machine. The problem is of course where to put it.
Got a new joystick for my b-day this weekend, works good too. When I finish RTCW I can get back to GTA3. Hopefully with the new video card it'll run better. I need to remember to run it in compatibility mode, that supposably makes it run better under XP.
The weekend was fun, but I can't help but get down in the dumps when I go anywhere (like a mall or shopping). I see all these beautiful young ladies, some too young, that I am attracted to. and I wonder where were they when I was in high school or college. Or was I just too blind to see/notice. A lot of it has to do with they dress more attractively now as compared to then. Maybe I was just born to early in time or too late. I do feel out of place/time a lot. Then again with being diagnosed with MS at such a young age, I think my youth was wasted. That if I knew this was going to happen I would have done things differently. I was doing so well not thinking of Julie until this weekend, I think Wendy brought her up. She was my "the one that got away", or I let slip through my fingers. I guess I'll never know what she thought, or if she knew how I felt about her. I never said so... I was too chicken and always thought I would have time to do so. I spent my high school and college years always thinking I would have time for women later in life, and concentrated on school. Now my time seems to be little and gobbled up by my MS.
Today I feel like a 27 yr old trapped in an old man's body with the mind of a teenager. TO thjink next year will be my 10 year reunion from graduating from Harpursville. Will I go if we have one? I don't know, I do and I don't.
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