Well it's been awhile since I posted on here...

I went to post a quick note on my other blog at diary-x and diary-x is no more. They had a hard drive failure and nothing was recoverable... grrrrrrrr. Guess I should have backed up all my posts manually. It's not like I've posted anything on there since last year anyways.

All I wanted to post was this: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/4787430.stm

I can't believe this is still active after nearly two years. Nothing new here, just got to my other blog.

winterblade.diary-x.com

Added a couple things here. A message board thing supplied via tag-board.com and a my current mood from imood.com. Both require javascript so if you're a freeloader like me and have one of the many cookie/ad/popup blockers they won't show up. This is what I do when I'm bored and read slashdot.org. I'm thinking of trying out diary-x.com and using that instead, just a thought though.

3+ weeks 'til Metroid Prime, I hope it's worth the wait.

Here's my shopping list for November

11/1 SpiderMan
11/5 Baylon 5 1st season box set ~100
11/5 Felicity 1st Season ~60

11/12 Sonic Mega Collection for Gamecube 39.99
11/12 3 Doors Down, Saliva
11/12 Star Wars AOC
11/12 Fellowship of the Ring Extended

11/18 Metroid Prime 49.99

11/26 MIB 2 Dvd

Some for Xmas presents, most for me :) Looks like an expensive November. Can't wait for Metroid Prime though, and I hope the rumor of a backlit GBA is true then I can get Metroid Fusion and be able to enjoy it.

By Stone Sour

BOTHER

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

(Solo: Corey)

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on…
I'll never live down my deceit

The edge of boredom

Okay, so I couldn't think of a better heading... sue me.

Well I'm still alive, physically at least. Did the whole unemployment administrative law judge thing, and like I thought they were only appealing the one thing (whether or not an offer was made). The judge sided with the state, whether that's what he really thiought, or it was just to shut the state the hell up. I don't know and I don't care. I'm getting tired of fighting someone elses battles. Or someone else's screw ups. Like the two messes
I have to deal with because someone in my doctor's office didn't cancel an appointment after they made me another one with a different specialist. And the home care unit charging my old insurance instead of my current one... no wonder the healthcare system is a mess... what do they do hir illiterate people in the accounting department?

Well after a week of having a class in MFC, which was fun I'm back in my cube bored. Waiting to hear back from a guy who I"m supposed to be working with on a task to set up a workstation with a bunch of tools and see if they can coexist. Sounds like busy work, but hey it's something.

I read an article over at Forbes called Generation Wrecked that basically says us Gen-Xers are screwed. This sort of goes back to my raise fiasco. Found out at my calss from one of the other guys taking it that back in the beginning of the year we hired too many graduates, cause we were usede to only 1 out of 5 offers accepting, so they put out more offers that what they need. Well with no one else hiring, a lot more accepted; so we have/had more people that we need. It isn't/wasn't those new hires that will/did get let go. My guess is that I'm stuck at my current salary for awhile, so I'll be seeing my buying power dwindling.

Maybe going to war will fix the economy... or kill us all. Either way will be a good outcome.

Chasing dreams and random stuff

I guess the raise thing has been settled, or at least beaten to death. Basically with the dot com bubble breaking techies/geeks aren't in as big of demand anymore, so I'm currently getting overpaid (?) or just on the border of where the system won't allow my manager to give me a raise. That or he's bullshitting me. Take your pick.

It's back to an administrative lkaw judge hearing next week. I hate it how the government can make it's own rules, and make it so that they're the exception in some cases. Wendy we denied unemployment benefits back in April, because they said she refused and offer without good cause and that she claimed she didn't receive an offer. Well we proved that no offer was made and turned in for evidence a bunch of stuff stating that with Wendy's health condition she shouldn't take a job in that stressful of a setting. So we "won" and she was able to collect unemployment again and didn't owe the state anything. She got a new job, and we thought it was over. Well of course not, some graybeard in Albany decided they want to appeal the decision. My take on it is they wanted to be there, well if they did then send somebody from the local DOL office. That and they want offer to mean a verbal conversation where an employer has the intention of making an offer. They don't have to actually make an offer just intend to. First rule of job hunting is don't quit your current job until you have an offer in writing from another employer. One would think the same would hold true here. Grrrr

About chasing dreams. Wendy and I were shopping at the mall on Sunday and we were strolling/rolling along I saw (or thought) I saw Julie going into the Gap with her mother and pushing a stroller. Now we don't shop at the Gap and I couldn't think of a good excuse to go in there, and I'm tired of chasing old dreams to see if it was in fact Julie. I'm still holding onto a dream from high school, which I graduated from almost 10 years ago. The only dreams I have anymore are my old dreams. Why have new dreams when your old ones turned out to be nightmares?